Accepting the Call

June 13, 2022

The reason this post is different is that it is much more personal. With that being said, no one has questioned God about me more than I have. I have said many times before that I really didn't know God or His Word the way I thought I did. I have to be honest it is still something I regret. I truly wish I had known what I know now back then. If I could turn back the hands of time I would have made different choices in life. Even so God still chose me for such a time as this. He set me aside and started to teach me. He gave me the wisdom, knowledge and understanding that I so desperately needed.

When God first started to speak to me about creating a blog I couldn't believe it. I told Him that I didn't know how to start a blog. I don't know anything about blogging. Then on top of that He started giving me things to say. This is really when the struggle began. I wouldn't even post things on my Facebook page. What God gave me was not popular. I knew people wouldn't like it. I would write them down in my notebook and keep them to myself. If you are familiar with me, you know I don't like attention. I do consider myself to be an introvert. So at this point God was pushing me out of my comfort zone. I was also concerned about what people would think of me. I knew that what God had given me was difficult. I didn't want people to think I was angry or against the church. Nevertheless, God has let me know that people will think and believe what they want. Whether people believe it or not, God is angry.

I was looking for pastors/leaders I knew personally to say these things. I expected them to be giving the warning of the things to come. Unfortunately, they weren't. They were still focused on living your best life, things that wouldn't help anyone stand. They were focused on everything else except what God truly cared about. I was sad and disappointed. There were many nights I cried. I kept asking God, why aren't they saying anything, can they not see? I'm not going to lie, I was confused. Then God simply responded, "Why aren't you saying anything?" I'm showing you, I'm telling you. So why aren't you saying anything?" My answer was simple, I'm not a minister, I don't have a platform, they already have a following, I don't. I'm not popular, people won't listen to me.

God continued to deal with me, pushing me. I had to be obedient to God. I couldn't worry about what others thought of me. When God has truly called you, you become concerned about what God is concerned about. God cares about the souls of His people. It is not God's will that anyone should be lost. Yet you have so many being led astray by deceiving voices. As I started to walk in obedience to God I faced opposition. I have faced opposition from pastors/leaders, the very ones that say they know and love God. I have to admit that it was very discouraging. The ones that you thought would be supportive. They were the ones making statuses, throwing slick shots, coming against you. It was the church folks which I did not expect. However, I have not let this deter me. I'm not looking to get rich, I don't want to be popular. I just want to please God and reach those God has commissioned me to reach.

Accepting the call was not easy. We know that the enemy will always fight against the truth of God's Word. Those of us called to this particular ministry, end times ministry, have been given a charge. We know it comes off harsh, but the things that God has given us to speak about are not always positive. In reality, we don't relish sharing it. The same word that is true for you also applies to us. That is why we also have to ensure we keep ourselves in the right standing with God. It's one thing for God to speak to and tell you about the things to come. It's different when He shows you, whether through dreams, visions, or both. I know that I'm not the only one, however I can only speak for myself. There are times when I have been afraid to go to sleep out of fear of having a dream. There have been times that I have been afraid to go back to sleep because I had a dream. I don't share every dream, but I share those that God permits me to tell. This does not even include the spiritual warfare, the enemy will try to keep you from delivering the Word.

For my part, I didn't ask God for this assignment, this gift. People have gotten so used to this polluted version of what a prophet/prophetess is. When we were kids in the 90's we were afraid of prophets. Those prophets back then gave the warning. It wasn't uncommon for them to speak of death if they saw it. If they saw exposure they shared it. They gave the call to repent, turn from your wicked ways. When we got grown and started doing our dirt we'd be sitting in church praying asking the Lord not to show them. Lord please don't let them call my name. Somewhere along the way the office became tainted. This is the version that people want, those that speak about blessings on top of blessings. You want to pack a church out, get a prophet and the people are coming. When people used to run from prophets. God is restoring the prophetic office. They don't care about how it makes you feel, whether you accept it or not. Our only responsibility is to walk in obedience, which means speaking what thus says the Lord. How you take it is between you and God. We don't sugarcoat, we're not here to play patty-cake with God's Word. He set us a part, He has chiseled and pruned us. He has made our faces hard and emboldened us with the courage to speak. No matter the opposition that we may face. We're often called judgmental, self righteous. Who do you think you are? Do you not know that God is indeed a God of judgement? There's no love in what you speak, yet God's love allows us to warn. There's no hope, yet God calls you to repentance, so you can have a chance. They are spreading fear, its fear mongering. You should fear God, that’s the problem, people have lost the fear of God. God hasn’t given us the spirit of fear.

Matt 10:28

And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

Hebrews 10: 30-31

For we know Him that hath said, Vengeance belongeth unto me, I will recompense, saith the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge his people. It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.

Luke 1:50

And His mercy is on them that fear Him from generation to generation.

Can you imagine the people of Nineveh being in denial about their sins as people are today. Take a moment to envision how that scenario would play out. Jonah comes to speak God’s judgment against them. God said that your great wickedness has come before Him, because of this He is going to destroy you. You’re a liar, you’re a false prophet! No way, my God is all loving. He would never destroy us, God isn’t going to judge us. He’s too good, He’s too kind. In return would have simply destroyed them just like He said He would. Instead they received the Word of the prophet Jonah.

Jonah 3:5-10

So the people of Nineveh believed God, and proclaimed a fast, and put on sackcloth, from the greatest of them even to the least of them. For word came unto the king of Nineveh, and he arose from his throne, and he laid his robe from him, and covered him with sackcloth, and sat in ashes. And he caused it to be proclaimed and published through Nineveh by the decree of the king and his nobles, saying, Let neither man nor beast, herd nor flock, taste any thing: let them not feed, nor drink water: But let man and beast be covered with sackcloth, and cry mightily unto God: yea, let them turn every one from his evil way, and from the violence that is in their hands. Who can tell if God will turn and repent, and turn away from his fierce anger, that we perish not? And God saw their works, that they turned from their evil way; and God repented of the evil, that he had said that he would do unto them; and he did it not.

Then people always want to quote

2 Chronicles 7:14

If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

You have to humble yourselves, confess your sins and turn from your wicked ways. REPENT!!!!!!

As for me, I'm staying on the potter's wheel, allowing God to continue to mold and shape me into the person He would have me to be. God is still teaching me with that said what God has taught me, what God has shown me I stand on. No, I'm not better than anyone else. I had to truly get to know God myself. You have the same opportunity to get to know God and His ways. I tried to fight it. Lord knows I made excuses. Even so, my name is Tierra and I decided to accept the call.

Remember that God loves you and so do I with the love of Christ.